GOD STILL AMAZES ME

Thursday July 29th was not a good day for me. I took my dog DJ to the vet because he was having some problems with his back legs. The vet called me and told me that she thought it was a degenerative nerve condition that was common in Boxers. As someone with a spinal chord injury, I know what nerve damage does to you. It meant that he would gradually lose his ability to walk. She was going to do some x-rays and call me back. In the mean time, I spent most of my time crying and thinking about him. I was not in a good place emotionally, so I put on this worship CD that I made. It always puts me in a better state of mind, which I really needed while I waited for her to call me back. The vet called back and told me that I could come get him.

I usually listen to that CD in my car, but my CD player got messed up when my battery went dead. As I'm getting in my car, I'm thinking to myself that I really wish I could hear my worship CD, on the way to get DJ. I turn on my radio, and it just happens to be at the very beginning of a song. It's Carrie Underwood's "Jesus Take The Wheel." Those people that know me are probably smiling or laughing because I have a "small" crush on Carrie. It was like God knew exactly what I needed to comfort me.

I decided to spend the next week praying and fasting for DJ. At church that Sunday, we sang the one song that brings me the most comfort. On Wednesday night, the sermon correlated perfectly with what I was dealing with and praying about. Then last Sunday night, we happen to sing the other song that really comforts me. In fact, they are the first and second songs on my worship CD. It was like God was book ending my week of prayer. I can't describe the peace I have felt.

I know non-believers and skeptics will look at this as just mere coincidences. As a very skeptical person myself, I understand that thought process. I too would blow them off as just coincidences if they rarely ever happened to me. However, these things happen all the time. A while back I remember being really anxious over something. I was getting really stressed out one night. I hadn't talked to anyone about it, but the next morning I got an email from a friend. It was a daily devotional that was focused on anxiety. The Bible verse accompanied with the devotional was 1 Peter 5:7-Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. I about fell out of my chair. This person had no idea what I was dealing with, but God did. They happen so much that I refer to them as comfortisms. They're just little reminders that He's there and looking out for us.


As for DJ, the vet said that it appears to be more an arthritis issue than a nerve one, which is the better of the two. He has been with me for just over ten years now, so I know he's in the last few years of his life. I'm just praying that God will at least ameliorate his situation, so he can enjoy what time he has left. If it's just one more week or another five years, I plan to enjoy ever minute I have left with him. He is one of the greatest gifts God has ever given me. That is a funny thing to say considering that at first I didn't want him. My other dog had recently died, and my dad brought him to my house. When I opened the door and saw him, I told him to take him back because I wasn't ready for another dog yet. He asked me just to keep him while he went and looked at a job. Within about five minutes, he had stolen my heart, and we have been inseparable ever since.